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Sep 27, 2023Liked by Malana Hokulani

🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥it takes courage to be this raw and face what you thought was behind you only to experience it, again, at a deeper level so you can continue to drain the sludge and puss of your wounds to allow more healing! Right there with you and grateful for your courage.

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Thank you so much, Gloria. That visual is perfect and true 🤢🤣 (I was just thinking about you yesterday– glad to see you 🥰 Thank you for reading! 🤗)

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Sep 26, 2023Liked by Malana Hokulani

Thank you for this Malana. 💜🙏🏼

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This is is such a great vulnerable share. Thank you for sharing. It resonated with me so much and I am sure many others will feel it too🙏

So many I miss my... I can relate to. Grateful❤️

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Thank you for reading, Roxanne! 🙏🏼 And thank you so much for letting me know it resonated and for your vulnerability, too. In sharing that you can relate with the “I miss my...” All part of processing and purging on the healing path. Sending you love as you continue doing the same ❤️❤️❤️

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Thank you for sharing this vulnerable story Malana. 🙏💙🙏

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Aww, thank you for reading, Jacq 🙏🏼 That’s what I thought last night as I hit publish: “Well, that was vulnerable.” 🤣🤣

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Sep 26, 2023Liked by Malana Hokulani

Ty for sharing. I can relate to the 'I miss my husband', I had that once. And thought 'where did that come from'? It shocked me. Then I became aware that it was me 'holding/snuggling' into him at night, once he was asleep that I 'missed'. So now I literally fall asleep holding my womb. And I feel love & gratitude & the energy of Jesus. You strong, feminine WOMAN. X

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Thank you for reading, Sarah! 🙏🏼❤️ You’re so welcome. What you wrote makes so much sense. That desire for human connection and touch. It’s only natural. It doesn’t even need to be them, but if they were the last one, it’s natural for our mind to flash to them– then when we examine it, it’s like “Nope, definitely don’t need or want it from them. Just in general!” And then we remember that we are capable of giving love and nurturing to ourselves. I love that you found that through holding your womb, aww 🥰

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Sep 26, 2023Liked by Malana Hokulani

Wow. Yes! I feel this and continue to as I go through MW and FW and even in reflection of my ex-Narc husband. Moments of joy, gratitude and important lessons despite the pain abuse and betrayal. It’s tumultuous the ups and downs of memories but your writing is truly such an amazing capture of the essence of healing with the Ultimate support of a loving teacher/guru and Jesus〰️💕〰️ Thank you, Malana!

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Thank you for reading, Berta! And thank you for your comment. I’m grateful to know this article resonated with you. I continue to go through it all, too, and sharing my process and journey has been so helpful. I truly appreciate your kind words about my writing and for reflecting that back to me about capturing the essence of healing. That feedback is a gift! 🙏🏼❤️

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Oh wow Malana! This is so heartfelt and definitely a challenging emotion to navigate and hold space for. Definitely felt this with my grandmother who assaulted me but at a certain time also was the only one who stood up for me. Being grateful for the glimmer while holding space for accountability is such a fine dance. Thank you for sharing your journey and process 🧡🧡🧡

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Thank you so much for reading, Kaimani! And thank you for sharing your own reflections. You put it perfectly: “Being grateful for the glimmer while holding space for accountability is such a fine dance.” 🙏🏼❤️

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deletedSep 26, 2023Liked by Malana Hokulani
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Thank you, Nancy! My old name 👀 Makes sense since I was talking about old me 🤣❤️

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